Exciting times ahead… works are under way for our next safe space ❤

Also some changes are buzzing around in my creative mind. Luckily i am able to keep these in their compartment now, so they remain orderly and don’t have me running around like a headless chicken day to day trying to manifest them all at once.

During my time at home a lot has been surfacing for me – anxiety about not working, feeling useless and worrying about not contributing financially. Why is it that nurturing the home and being the stability for your children isn’t recognize as successful in society??

When we look back into the more peaceful past when people and nations were thriving it was always due to the foundation of community. This push for women to work and be ‘boss ladies’ has forced us away from our feminine energy and the presence of being a woman / partner / mother in our home. I always envision the tree of life and to me the feminine aspect has always been the roots of the tree. The foundation below the surface, nourishing and reaching for water and enbedding deeper and steadfastly into the earth – preparing for any storms that may threaten and being able to withstand any damage. The masculine represents the trunk , striving towards the sky reaching for the sun. Growing thicker and mightier in strength with each winter and cycle and the leaves, blossom and fruit represent our service to life. Continually shifting and changing – soaking in the environment and outwardly showing the works & beauty of within. Unfortunately now I feel the western ways have forced women into becoming the whole tree !! and it quite frankly is exhausting and unsustainable.

We have to learn order so that we can discern where to focus our energy. I have reached out for work and nothing has come forward so i know in my heart that this time at home is needed. To practice patience – presence and focusing on myself and my children and what feels good for us in our new home.

Once i acknowledged my anxieties and accepted my current situation, sitting in the discomfort it began to lift and every day I have been applying myself to daily tasks that i would usually find mundane and honestly ‘beneath me’ – which now embarrasses me to share but i am opening my heart to you as i know this is where true connection lies.

What i have discovered is that its in the small things that we find joy. When we are constantly trying to ‘achieve’ – be seen or heard by others we are not seeing or hearing ourselves we are lost in the craziness of our minds.

Getting the washing done, clean – dried and put away. Weeding the path. Painting the bedroom. Shopping for food so we can eat nutritious meals. Spending an hour a day on each task we climb the mountain safely and steadily. We are living in order and this creates peace and most definitely harmony.

I can’t wait to get back to work, because for me it is more like community, safety, love and wholehearted growth but this time at home has shown me clarity for living more present, structured and above all – calmer.

What is it to ‘BE.’

To be is to awaken every day to whatever version of yourself is present and to embrace it. To ‘show up’ whatever and however you are. To be considerately yourself because you matter too.

To be is to respect and acknowledge all aspects of yourself that is needing your awareness. To accept your thoughts, feelings and emotions quite simply for what they are. Your humaness. Which has been created perfectly in Gods image.

Thoughts – emotions – feelings dont always need analysis or scrutiny. They need to be seen, felt or heard and allowed to be. The problem begins when we attach meaning to everything we experience. Dysecting ourselves trying to find ‘the answer’ so that we can usually blame or correct our sins.

Freedom comes when the only part you attach to is your heart and the love for yourself as a spirit learning to be human. Forgiveness, compassion and empathy are the 3 teachings of the Christ light and when we practice this towards ourselves anything and everything is possible.

You are a ferocious storm, a wondrous sunrise and a beautiful rose blossoming and blooming every season full of beauty and magic and dazzling light if you allow yourself to ‘BE’.

The way to healing i have learnt – is to acknowledge, surrender and accept over and over until all there is is an abundance of LOVE and you. The form, the illusion and the truth.

All of it together paints a continuous, wondrous picture that transports through time. All of us – every part of us belongs to an ever changing masterpiece and we all get to create and paint our own little piece. Light and dark – colourfull and dull, nothing permanent or damaging. The sun will always shine and the rain will also fall and learning to ‘BE’ you is taking that courageous step into the picture and letting your whole self be seen.

All my love – Sammi x